visual//THOUGHTS

August is always a rough month for me, so I've been going through my annual replay of "Final Fantasy Tactics" and last night I had a girly night with my friend and sisters as a sort of mood maintenance thing.

This year is the first year that I'm playing the PSP version, "Final Fantasy Tactics: War of the Lions". So far, so good. The revamped, animated and voice acted FMVs are nice, and I'm really impressed to see that there's both vs. and coop options included in this new version. It'd be great if I had someone to play with, but eh, I'll live with solo mode for now. I've fallen into bad habits again, powergrinding my way to victory; I'm only on my fourth major story battle, and I've already unlocked classes that I can't even buy equipment for, but I'm still grinding anyway. I really should stop doing that, because it always bites me in the ass later when I have to face down a level 99 Marquis Elmdor and his right hand attack wenches, and it is rough as fuck.

Girly night went over really well. We dyed our hair, painted our nails, watched romantic vampire flicks and ate snacks that are bad for us. I now have purple hair, purple and black glittery nails, and just a smidge of salsa and blue corn tortilla chips left over. It was great stress relief for me and my friend; my sisters only really participated in the eating of terrible snacks and watching vampire movies.

I feel a little bit better now.

I have a doctor's appointment later on today so I should really get to bed. But...I'm hungry. :

So apparently Google has its own OS, Chrome OS, and I didn't know this. This OS is completely locked down, you can not use ANYTHING on this OS that is not created by Google and downloaded from their app store. This makes it completely useless for anything you could conceivably want to do with a computer, except for maybe checking your GMail, which is a worthless fucking service that no one uses.

Another thing I didn't know was that the netbook my sister purchased for me tonight was loaded with this useless fucking OS.

So now I have a netbook with wonderful hardware, but shit software, that I can't play any of my games on or anything else. I hope I can get a refund for this shit, or at least find someone to change the OS to something less worthless. At this point, I'd even take Windows 8, and that OS is a piece of shit compared to its predecessor.

So. Things.

I'll be graduating (after twelve fucking years) this August, after which starts the frantic search for new employment since I won't be able to work at AUM anymore. I'm going to try to get work at either ASF or the Davis Theatre doing backstage stuff, prop running most likely since it'll pay the bills and keep me active without being too stressful for my GAD.

Truck is still dead, which means I'm going to be reliant upon public transportation until I can save up for a new-to-me $900 junker that can get me around, hopefully without leaving pieces strewn about the road. I'll forgo AC and heat if it means I can transport myself somewhere without having to rely on Montgomery's shitty bus system or an expensive cab service.

Pfizer is doing away with their prescription assistance program soon, according to the pharmacist at the clinic, so I'm going to have to find another way to get my Geodon soon. I really can't afford $300 a month, but I also can't afford to just do without, either; as much as I miss my manic phases, my depressive phases were a bitch to deal with and I'd rather not go back to all that.

I've hit another low point. It is not a nice feeling.

I rewatched "Revolutionary Girl Utena" tonight with the explicit intention of actually paying attention to more than just the awesome art and the neat swordfights, and suddenly I realize exactly how fucked up everything in this series is. I mean, I was always aware that it was full of questionable content, but it is at times truly disturbing.

This actually makes me like it more.

Well, things are starting to look up.

I've started back to school this semester. I can only afford to take one class at a time, which means I have three semesters left before I can graduate, but that's okay. I'm currently taking Survey of Non-Western Art, an art history course featuring art from outside of Europe and the U.S. for once. I'm really enjoying it, right now we're on pre-colonial North American Indian art, it's all quite beautiful. So far I've been able to keep my grades up, for the most part, although that 85 on that last paper was kind of disappointing. I need to get a headset so I can practice my German on Rosetta Stone, since I'll have to take German II before I can graduate. I'm horribly out of practice.

In other good news, I also have a job. The bad news is that instead of the 12 hours a week I was originally supposed to work, I now only work 3 hours a week, which pretty much just pays for the gas I use to get back and forth between home and the campus every day. I work for AUM's Center for Disability Services, I take notes for the hearing impaired. Which is a pretty cushy job, especially considering I get paid $9/hour. Right now I'm taking notes in a world history class for a nice young lady. My note-taking skills have always been pretty tight, so I hope it helps her a bit.

Its that time of year where retail stores and cafes start looking for seasonal work, so I'm going to turn in another round of applications and see what I can net for myself. Covering my gas is nice, but I'd like to be able to pay some bills and maybe have a little bit extra spending money, too.

I think I might change my icons. I love the Juri x Shiori theme, but something a little different might be nice.

Kind-of sort-of watching Spartacus right now. The dialogue leaves a bit to be desired and since I'm coming in midway through the story I really don't follow on the plot, but I appreciate the cinematography. The director really did a good job on portraying just how fucking brutal the gladiatorial games really were. A+.

Kind of pissed right now because I haven't worked all week. I mean, I'm not really in love with the job, but I don't have any other prospects right now so I need all the shifts I can get just to get by. All my shifts were cannibalized so one of my coworkers could get a few extra hours on his paycheck, which makes me a bit resentful. But whatever.

o hai thar LJland. I have a job now.

So, I might have a job at World Market. I don't know for sure; when I called to check on that today the manager wasn't in, so I'll have to call tomorrow morning. This would be great, though, not just because I'll finally be able to support myself again but because it'll be a great way to get out of the house and be productive. The worst part about being unemployed is feeling like a useless lump.

If I get a job, I probably won't have time for all the LARPing and iRO that I've been doing to pass the time recently. But I love roleplay, so I've been thinking about getting back into text-based RPs since I can make a comment one day, go to work/school/whatever and come back the next day to check it, leave another comment, rinse and repeat. No schedule juggling required. Anyone got a good RP to recommend?

Added a few images to my sorely neglected devART. I hope to make this a regular thing.